Frustration – from then to now part 1
Fist fender blast fuzz box bits of brain smelling tangents, agents of crusty building;
Scantily disguised telephone conversations,
with girls that aren’t there for you, just left out to dry, too normal and ugly to be delighted, blighted with indigestion and clogged up, unable to use, embarrassing for all; no ticket to the ball
Scrubbing the floor with no glass slipper.
A reasonable assumption that lonely apprehension is immersed in depression and self crucifixion.
Cross the words with the understanding, a purple trance lamination, oblivious to the machinations
Fruit picking, speeding, blue-pilled imagination.
Sensations heightened, life’s living for a moment, then hell of isolation, broken penetration, dull realisation, emotional degeneration.
Waiting for call to cosmic, the start of a beginning, plastic circus excavation.
Old whilst waiting, disappointed then painted.
Drains up on perception; just green never learning
Yearning for excitation
Just stirred up inoculation
Locked in lust joined in fast winter round tree branches; street lamp delighted.
Shining graveyard life lost found importune
Digging holes for heart saviour’s prison
Chomping the chocolate to burst the energy with special brewed cans of sleepless types
Homeless hapless but free of cramped style, living a minute by a mile; pressing lead stolen to cap the bottle of true aunt resin.
Black smothered pot smoking pipes dripping
Anal nitrate fizzing capsules injected by nightly dreamt free party animals
Crashed bonnets with bullets charged on Dieppe troubled shores
Tents barking with morning monster mammal challenge
Distorted visionary street women clasping bar bra madness
Hockey sticked pretty monsters calling shots in rough sea kaleidoscope
Dancing stars moving mountains and evidence from shore to droplet, in second rising
Colours dripping prim and proper crazy, angry lone star prepare for the best, least dressed sea nude weeping mentality
Chasing features that don’t exist, designing dreams that only persist and are never gratified
Champion causes that effect mastication
Chew on the fat of mass debating meat cleaver, shot up blood oozing, blocked veins bruising, least a living to do list.
Merchandise mucky and quality unsure cut with pepper burning addition injected impure.
Headache cramps and legs shaking projectile vomitting strangely unrelenting.
Wash down with whisky and soda and bang up again lets see if we can finish off the light
Switch down the purpose, crush the pill, stir up the teaspoon and drink together in loved wonder.
Wake one day to escape unreality, just try no immersion evolve free of pollution
Stepping out into ordinary impulses, to grow the internal combustive appreciation
Sliding into car crushed deep canals between places with smog gone city in cinema night neon
Pressing for perception a flutter inside, a recognition a slipper to find,
Glass hearted shoe shine from years of protection for death row living to chequered hoping
Driven to experience beauty
Remember the past as an envoy to a future that has a chance at last.
The cringe is still rising
The fashion is real and choking
The time to embrace is meaning
Chance the stinging is smarting and greetings to the dull thudding of death repeating
As friends pass by the minute
As they did in the past and always will do together live best
True with purpose
Creating a history not losing to its mystery I must.